__ Tuesday, April 29, 2008 ;
Was up till 3am in the morning because I COULDN'T FIND MY FORENSIC PSYCHIATRY LECTURE NOTES AND READINGS!!! Oh my goodness! Was frantically finding my whole room but I still couldn't find it! Anyway, in the midst of finding the notes, I got bored and took some photos of my room. HAHA!
**Yay, I love my room colour! Yello! So therapeutic and bright eh? Heex...
My messy study table. =X
I need another bookshelf! LOL! No place to fit all my books and files sia...
Even more messy. =/
I realised I've got lots of Christian books in my shelf. Haha... People always give me books on my birthday but I've got no time to read them! Heh... Excuses only lar... =P
My beloved Archie comics. I will never get tired of them. Heex...
Nithya and I were trying to figure out what out lecturer wrote on our Islam paper but gave up after trying so hard. They don't even look like words. Worst than a doctor's handwriting. LOL! And yes, we got a B+. Not up to our expectations but at least we tried our best. Heex :):)Was reading a booklet that Esther lent me which talked about the baptism of the Holy Spirit yesterday night. And I tried praying and asking God for the gift of tongues. But, cannot leh. :( :( Maybe the time's not ripe yet.
OKOK. I got to go find my notes again. I hope I can find them because it's my favourite topic and I want to focus on it for the Mental Health exam next Monday. ARGH!
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__ Sunday, April 27, 2008 ;
Sometimes, being too sentimental is no good.
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I'd be lying if I say I'm not at all affected by all that has happened.
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The happy memories are short-lived,
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and so is our friendship.
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Pastor is right,
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things will hurt even more if I drag it longer.
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I'm just glad everything is back on track,
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and we're all moving on.
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Meanwhile,
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please bear with me for the time being.
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I'm still nursing my wounded heart.
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__ Saturday, April 26, 2008 ;
I had to blog about this. It's just so .... unexpected, I should say. =X
I didn't know things would turn out to be so serious. I didn't know how much mess I've created. I didn't know the many implications that could have happened. I just wasn't that far-sighted. Sigh! Because of me, things turned out this way. I feel so guilty. Oh my goodness. I am so sad :(
## I guess what's done is done already. I shall stop crying over spilt milk. I guess God has a reason for everything.
Anyway, I'm happy. Pastor Bee said I can go East
Timor with her after I graduate!
Haha... I'm so excited
lah!
But... 2-3 more years before I can go. I shall wait patiently... Heex...Was telling her about my dream to go Africa too and she said she can help me fulfill it if I'm really serious.
Hahaha. This is just so unbelievable.
Africa... One day I'll go... =)Back to my books :)
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__ Friday, April 25, 2008 ;
Will be on hiatus until after 6th May!
To everyone who's facing exams, jia you jia you! :)
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__ Thursday, April 24, 2008 ;
Am really bored stiff from all the mugging. Sigh! Why on earth did I choose to take Islam? I feel so overwhelmed with all the Malay and Arabic terms in my readings. Argh =X
Was clearing the clutter in my room and I came across a letter that you wrote to me a year ago. Sigh... Brought back many happy memories.
Because of you, I got to know what happiness was like.Yet,because of you, I got to know what heart-broken meant.I sincerely hope you're doing fine now. No matter where you may be, I'll be keeping you in my prayer for as long as I live.
我累了...
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My all-time favourite song! :)
Air Supply - GoodbyeI can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart
and I sympathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbye
You deserve the chance at the kind of love
I'm not sure i'm worthy of
Losing you is painful to me
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to say but goodbyeOh my goodness... The more I listen, the more I want to go to their concert! =X It's like a one-in-a-lifetime thing man! I WANT TO GO! Maybe I'll go make friends with some aunties and psycho them to go with me. Heh. :P
## HuiMin, you're losing out a lot by not knowing who Air Supply is! Hahaha... I'll make sure I let you listen to their songs when I see you around next time! :P
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__ Wednesday, April 23, 2008 ;
Sick today :(
Woke up with a terrible headache and stomachache. Plus fever and vomit to worsen how I feel. Oh my goodness... I hope I get well SOON so that I have the energy to study. First paper in 2 DAYS TIME! Oh man... This is the first time I feel so unprepared for such a major exams. I hope I won't do too badly this semester. Haiz...
I don't know whether I'm really doing the right thing. I respect her a lot and that's why I listened to her. But, am I really doing the right thing? We really had fun together. It'd be my regret if our friendship is broken because of this episode. Sigh!
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Can't sleep. =X
Woots. One of my uncles is graduating next Sunday with a Masters in Divinity. Soon I'll have a pastor-uncle... Heex... Sounds cool! I really respect him man, because he was so faithful in God's calling and didn't mind resigning from teaching few years back to study full-time in Bible College. A big risk, especially when he has 3 children and he's the sole breadwinner of the family. I certainly look up to him a lot. A pity I can't be there for the graduation ceremony because of exams. Sian... =X
Went to a wake just now and my aunty mentioned that I seemed to have lost weight! Hahaha... I'm so happy. Hopefully it's not just a statement to make me over the moon. LOL! I must continue my daily walking. Heh...
Nothing much to blog about lah. Till then! :)
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__ Saturday, April 19, 2008 ;
The world's most attractive man... Haha :P
Sigh... I'm so obsessed with my beloved *husband*. Hahaha :P Just finished watching his concert DVD that I bought the other day with Esther. Oh man... I must psycho Wyatt to work with him as soon as possible. I am desperate! =D
Air Supply is coming to Singapore for concert on 21st June! AHHHH! I want to go! But so paiseh lah... I think everyone is going to call me "aunty" if I go. Sian... haha... =P
Better return to my books now. I can't wait for 6th May! Holiday! :)
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__ Thursday, April 17, 2008 ;
Grace is very happy.
She has so many things to look forward to after her exams.
1. Retreat to Malaysia with Karen!
2. Coffee Bean with XianHui! I miss you, girl! :)
3. Batam with cell group!
4. Fishing with Karen!
5. Andy Lau Wonderful World Concert DVD to watch! <3
6. Lunch with Cynthia!
7. Library books to read!
And Pastor Bee is bringing Grace out!
She can't believe it.
God has been so good to her despite her sinful past.
Grace feels so afraid because she is so happy. Irony, irony...
Anyway, in the meantime,
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
grace must study.
Grace truly wants to be happy! =)
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I miss Lorna so much :( :( :( :(
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__ Monday, April 14, 2008 ;
I just realised how much my little brother has grown. No longer can I call him 'baby' now. Heh... =P
2 years ago....
Huge difference hor? Hahaha...
It's my prayer that he will grow up to be a man who loves God (:
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__ Saturday, April 12, 2008 ;
Something unforeseen happened. Just as I was worrying about what is going to happen in the near future, God brought this Bible verse into my mind.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. - Matthew 6:34
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God is really amazing! He is indeed responding and comforting me through His Word. With Him, I fear no konger! =)
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The Lord is close to all who call on Him, yes, to all who call on Him sincerely. - Psalm 145:18
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Cell Group outing!Met Esther after school at National Library. We went to Bras Basah and browsed through so many books. Hmm.. Saw many interesting titles. Shall go find them again after exams! After that, we walked to Raffles City and sat at this cool place to chit chat. I ordered a glass of Iced Lemon Tea and it cost me $6! Oh my goodness... It wasn't even nice at all! :(
Walked together to Marina Square to meet Wyatt, Karen and Georgia. We went to this place opposite Marina Square to have dinner! Nice food! But there were 3 idiotic cats loitering around the vicinity. Totally spoiled my appetite. Sian... Thank goodness I have a strong heart. ^.^
Fooooooooood.... Yummy! :)We bought tickets to sit for the boat ride at the river. My first time! Heex... Saw the beautiful night scenes of Singapore! It was really cooling and relaxing!
Some of the clearer sceneries that I shot. Heh...
The ticket! :DOut of compassion, I've decided not to post up those hilarious photos that I took of Karen. Hahaha :P Here are some decent ones... :)
Me, Karen and Georgia :)
Uncle Wyatt! My only hope to meet Andy Lau! Heex...
Me and Esther! :)Really had a fun time with them! I really thank God for bringing these people into my life. Of cuz, not leaving out those who couldn't turn up! HuiMin! I didn't forget you! hahaha... =P Plus Peter and Zane! And Pastor Bee Ngor too! For the first time in my life, I actually love going for cell group outings and church. God has really answered my prayer. =)
I'm so happy! Our group had an A for our Mental Health and Illness project! We had a tough time but I'm glad everything turned out to be good. =)
Yay! If everything goes well, Karen and I are going for the 5-day Grace Retreat at Malaysia! Excited! 5 Star Hotel! :)
Meanwhile, got to start mugging real hard! Exams coming in about 15 days! Oh my goodness! =X
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__ Friday, April 11, 2008 ;
I woke up at 5am today and suddenly felt the urge to go to my Bible. And I saw this verse:
"Who is the liar? It is the man who denies that Jesus is the Christ. Such a man is the antichrist - he denies the Father and the Son."
- 1 John 2:22
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God has really answered my doubts! Been feeling very confused and sort of mixed up after doing the Islam module in school. Came across a lot of literature and journals that do not support what the Bible says. I think this verse really explains everything! Heh :)
Then, I came across another verse:
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"I write to you, dear children, because your sins have been forgiven on account of his name. "
- 1 John 1:12
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I've got nothing more to add on to this. Today morning, after so long, I see light in my life. Finally....
Special thanks to a particular Pastor (: I want to walk away from my past. I really do. I know God will help me. =)
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"God is light: in Him there is no darkness at all. "
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__ Thursday, April 10, 2008 ;
I'm really frightened to think of the future. Can I really walk out of my past? Can I be freed?
Grace ol' Grace... Can't you ever do anything right?:( :( :(
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__ Wednesday, April 09, 2008 ;
Was talking to Mr Low just now in the morning at school and I ended up having lots of questions after that. Haiz... Will I ever understand what exactly I'm made for? What is my purpose of living on this world? What has God created me for?
Lies. Deception. Contradictions. Struggles. Sorrows. Oppression. Unfairness.
Sigh...
Life must be more than all these.
Dear God,will I ever understand You?Maybe I will never,because You are God...****Am chatting with one of my tuition kids now. Kids nowadays really grow up too quickly. They don't realise how precious the innocence of childhood is. Sigh... I'd give anything to go back to the past :(
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__ Monday, April 07, 2008 ;
Ohmygoodness.
I want to buy it!
BUT, looking at how old-looking my wallet is now, I think I better not buy. Typical lazy people like me who do not bother to maintain the wallet will only ruin the label eh.
Sian...
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__ Saturday, April 05, 2008 ;
What A Wonderful WorldI see trees of green, red roses tooI see them bloom, for me and youAnd I think to myself, what a wonderful worldI see skies of blue,and clouds of whiteThe bright blessed day, dark sacred nightAnd I think to myself, what a wonderful worldThe colors of the rainbow, so pretty in the skyAre also on the faces, of people going byI see friends shaking hands, sayin' "how do you do?"They're really sayin' "I love you"I hear babies cryin', I watch them growThey'll learn much more, than I'll ever knowAnd I think to myself, what a wonderful worldYes I think to myself, what a wonderful worldOh yeahWas reading someone's blog and she had this song. I remember how much my dad loved this song.
Sigh!
*Is it really a wonderful world out there?
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Finally done with Mental Health and Illness project yesterday. I should say that the presentation was a total flop :( All the other groups exceeded their allocated time and we had to rush on all our slides. Things didn't go on well... Oh well... Left with the Islam term paper and I'll be done with all my projects and essay! (:
Anyway, some more photos from the Botanic Gardens outing. Thanks to Esther for the CD. Heh :)
Karen, Esther and me. Oh my goodness, Esther is like one head taller than me :(
Group photo... =)
It's really quite fun to just sit on the mats and sing song. Heex...
Woots. I know what I can do during my 3 months break! I'm going to find whether there are any Cantonese lessons available so that I can enrol. Been wanting to learn Cantonese for a long time but I don't know how to learn sia. I can't wait for the day I can finally speak fluent Cantonese to my *ahem* husband. Hahaha :P
I just can't stop gushing and swooning about how handsome he is man! Oh my goodness... ^.^
Oh man.... Wyatt, please please work with him again SOON... Haha (:
I'm afraid to feel hopeful. I'm scared I'll be disappointed again. But,I've decided to give myself another chance. Thank you,
Pastor :)I hope I won't let you down this time.
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__ Thursday, April 03, 2008 ;
Singapore's education system is really screwed man! It's super late (early?) now and I'm at Macs doing my damn-ed essay. And I have an important presentation later at 8am. Oh my goodness. :(
We walked across the dark grasslands,drinking our Iced Lemon Tea. Humming to the tunes from your phone,we laughed at our own silliness.My nights out have been really fun and memorable,because of your companion.阿宝, what would my life be like without you? Sigh... I don't even dare to think of the day you return to Malaysia. Please stay and become a Permanent Resident ya? :(
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__ Tuesday, April 01, 2008 ;
I must be really bored to post 3 entries in a day. Heh. Anyway, I'm done with my powerpoint slides! A sense of achievement! Hahaha =)
It's going to be midnight and I'm going out for supper with 阿宝 soon. Yay! I miss those times spent out with her! Wish I have my uncle's car now, then I can drive us for a spin again around the quiet streets like last time, and not forgetting our blasting of Andy Lau's songs. Heh :P
I'm feeling very high now. LOL. The past few days of depressed moments really ate me up I guess. I hope the brighter days have come. But I'm not optimistic about it anymore.
Out for supper now! But doctor said I cannot eat seafood for the time being lest my skin gets worst. There goes my sambal stingray :(
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It seems that the busier I get, the more I tend to blog. Hmmm...
I couldn't stand the temptation just now, so I went to the freezer and took out the tube of ice-cream to eat. Oh man... There goes my diet plan. Haiz... But anyway, I lost 1kg last week! Haha... Cuz I've been surviving on biscuits and bread lately. Need to save up more money! So many activities and things that require money. Sigh!
1. Johor with 阿宝! (:
2. Retreat to Malaysia (maybe)
3. One day Mission Trip to Batam
4. Sweeney Todd DVD
5. Exchange program to Taiwan/HongKong with WenXiu! Hopefully we can successfully get the places!
6. Bring my brother to HongKong's DisneyLand next year
And lastly, I want to get a
car before I turn 24! 4 more years for me to save diligently. Heex... Was sitting on Jason's car the other day and it feels so great to own a car man! Heh.
Ok, think I've had enough of a break. Shall go write my Islam paper now. Argh!
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Been having a terrible headache since yesterday. I hope it goes away because I really need to finish my Islam essay and powperpoint slides for the Mental Health and Illness tutorial this Friday. Our group wants to do a role play too about what happened at IMH. And I'm acting as the Psychiatrist. Heh. I'm getting tensed up already. =X
Got back my Statistics Assignment! Thank God I did not fail because the lecturer said that he failed quite a number of students. My many nights of hard work didn't go to the drain. Heex...
I heard Andy Lau is coming to town again! Oh my goodness! Wonder whether it's true. I hope so!!! Arrrr!!! So excited!!! Hahahaha :P
My life-long dream.... Awww <3 <3
Till then.
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