__ Tuesday, October 30, 2007 ;

Darn... I'm sick again. This is like the third time I've fallen ill since school started lah. Oh my, what is happening? I was really healthy in the past.

Think I better go sleep now. :(

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__ Monday, October 29, 2007 ;

I'm so pissed off with myself that I can just die now lah. OMG! I just realised that I got the format wrong for my Social Work essay and worse still, I got the citations wrong for all the previous term papers which I've already submitted. HOLY COW! I'm so worried now that I'll fail all my papers because of such idiotic mistakes. DARN! Wish I could be more techno-savvy. Argh! =X

Anyway, today's Psyche tutorial was interesting. Watched a video on the Milgram Experiment that shows how far humans are willing to go by the order of someone in authority. Milgram wanted to know why the Germans were able to carry out such evil and disturbing deeds during the Holocaust. It's a really interesting experiment but it won't be able to be carried out in present day because of ethical issues. But it's really got to be the most interesting experiment in the Social Psychology sector. Heh... Psychology is getting fun! I can't wait for tomorrow's lecture on Abnormal Psychology! :)

Got to go edit my part for the Malay Studies essay now. Thank goodness Kin Cheong pointed out about my formatting... =S

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__ Sunday, October 28, 2007 ;

I've been feeling very disturbed about my spiritual life lately. It's been quite some time since I went for churh services and yet I do not feel any bit of guilt. I attend crusade meetings but I do not feel any passion at all. The main reason why I continue attending is because I feel obligated to them. I do enjoy meeting up with Grace and Elaine and the other year 1s but I don't look forward to the worship sessions. I dread prayer sessions and I find reading the bible totally boring. Can you believe it? All these statements are coming from a self-professed Christian. I must have been the lousiest and most sinful Christian on earth.

I can really feel myself drifting further and further away from God and yet, I do not find it worrying at all. And this is in fact worrying. I'm actually disturbed and vexed because I'm so apathetic with the fact that I'm backsliding.

Come to think of it, I've accepted Christ since I was in Primary school but I've never put in much effort to know God and to grow in God's word. I've attended Faith Methodist for almost 3 years but I still feel so out-of-place whenever I'm in service or some prayer meetings.

Am I a Christian because I truly love a God who sent His son to die on the cross for our sins, or am I a Christian because I've been following blindly to what the teachers have been teaching me since young?

Can I even call myself a Christian in the first place?

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__ Saturday, October 27, 2007 ;

Went for Crusade yesterday to celebrate Grace's birthday. There are 3 'Grace's in the group including me! LOL...

Next week will be a busy week again. Sigh! So many meetings and assignments to do.

29/10 (Mon) - Malay Studies project meeting
31/10 (Wed) - English Tutorial 9
01/11 (Thurs) - Social Work tutorial meeting
02/11 (Fri) - Deadline for Malay project
03/11 (Sat) - Malay Seminar 9am-9pm

Haha... But I'm still quite happy with what I'm busying myself with. Really thankful that I'm able to study what I'm interested in! :)

Went back to JSS yesterday to attend my sister's Meet-the-Parents session. Saw quite a few familiar teachers but I only had the chance to talk to Mrs Tong. Secondary school days were really the most fun and enjoyable time in my life. I remember that I sat with XianHui for 2 years in class, I was always in front of See Wai during exams for the entire 4 years, I remember how SeeWai, XianHui and I would run to the canteen during recess.. Haha.. And I will never forget the sweets from Mrs Soh, the "You are my sunshine" song from Mr Ching and many many more... Sigh! Those were the days... I feel so old reminiscing the past... :(

Time flies, people come and go, some leaving barely noticeable footprints but some leave deep and lasting memories... Haiz!

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__ Thursday, October 25, 2007 ;

Had dinner with Karen and Wenxiu at JP's KFC last night. Ate the 2 piece chicken meal. Gosh, I'm getting fatter. =(

Anyway, Ms Debra returned our English group's essay and we scored 28/30! Haha.. So stunned! Now I'm left with the last essay of the semester for Malay Studies. It's a group essay about Collective Representation. Quite interesting to research on Malay supersitions and mystic participation. It's due next Friday and after that, it's time to mug for Final Exams. I've been lagging behind a lot in terms of my readings and tutorials. Sigh!

There's a Malay Seminar again next Saturday from 9am - 9pm. It's a seminar in collaboration with some African thingy. I hope I'll be able to last till that long. The good thing is that breakfast, lunch and dinner are all provided and that I'll get to see performances from the Malay folk dancers again. I still remember the Sufi's Whirling Performance that time. It was so awesome! Plus, there will be speakers from all over the world coming to campus to speak. Haha.. Just hope it'd be interesting because a question will be tested regarding the talks. Oh gosh!

I can't wait for holidays to start!

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__ Wednesday, October 24, 2007 ;

Was really busy lately.It has been really hectic with a mid-term test and 2 term papers - Social Work and Kashmir. I'm glad that I've handed up the Social Work paper and that English test is over. Heex... And I'm almost done with the final draft of my Kashmir paper! Finally, I'm free... NOT! I still have a Malay studies essay to complete by next Monday. Oh man! =X

Anyway, went to visit MeiYan at Commonwealth Sheng Siong just now and I'm so happy to see her again! Heex... Went to meet Lorna afterwards too :)

Oh ya, I've not mentioned that I went to straighten my hair. Heh... Did it last Friday with WenXiu at Kelly Concept in Jurong East. =)

Got to return to that Kashmir essay again. Haiz... So sick and tired of it already.

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__ Thursday, October 18, 2007 ;

She's standing nearer and nearer to the edge of the cliff each day. The scenery beneath is mesmerizing yet filled with rocky waters. On the other hand, the land behind her is dull yet secured. She feels the struggle inside her. Once she falls, there will be no turning back. She yearns so much to head back to the secured land but she finds herself moving towards the edge as the days pass. It's just a matter of time before she falls to the point of no return....

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__ Wednesday, October 17, 2007 ;

I'm really very, very disappointed.

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__ Tuesday, October 16, 2007 ;

Usually I dread going home from school because the bus ride back is so boring and long. But today, I had someone who accompanied me on the journey. Haha... She's ZiCui, my ex-supervisor from Sheng Siong. I was really surprised when I saw her board the bus and it has been a really long time since I last saw her. I was really afraid of her initially because she used to scold me a lot when I was working at Sheng Siong but I realised today that beneath her somewhat cold and fierce exterior, she's actually quite a nice person. Heex... I discovered a lot about her today from the conversation with her on the bus. Hopefully I'll get to see her on the bus again.. Haha.. =)

Received an email from the school regarding Exchange Programmes. I really want to go to Hong Kong as an exchange student. I've already set my mind of the University of Hong Kong. Haha... Imagine staying in Hong Kong for a few months! How wonderful that can be! Maybe I'll get to see Andy Lau bowling in some bowling alleys. Or perhaps I can go to his fan club's office to find him! Oh my gosh... All these wishful thoughts are making me very excited. Haha... But most importantly, I seriously feel a need to get away and clear my mind.

Anyway, I finally started a bit on the social work paper but I'm really rushing for time now. Got to hurry! And my Kashmir paper! Argh!

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I didn't start on my Social Work paper after all... So disappointed with myself. =( I really can't work on the internet; with youtube, blogs, msn etc... Sigh! I've been sighing for don't know how many time a day already.. Getting older physically and even mentally. Argh!

I forgot to mention that I saw Fiona Xie filming at Jurong Entertainment Centre in the morning while I was on the way to the library. She's really pretty in real life. And I saw how hard and tiring filming was, having to repeat the scenes over and over again until the director is satisfied. We should appreciate TV shows even more...Haha...

Really got to sleep now. If not I'll doze off in the lectures later. 2 lectures back-to-back some more! Thank goodness it's Psychology lecture.. Heex =P

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__ Monday, October 15, 2007 ;

Sometimes I really don't know why I'm still friends with *him*. I have this feeling that he's treating me like an ATM machine. I feel so cheated now of my hundred bucks. Though may not seem significant to some people, it's still my hard-earned money. Sigh! I guess our friendship is worth more than just monetary terms so I'll just tolerate until one day I explode. I know it's not right to talk behind his back but haiz... I need to get it off my chest. Argh!

Went to Sheng Siong just now with Chee Siong because he wanted to buy some daily essentials for his Australia trip. As I stepped into that usual yet somewhat unfamiliar place, many thoughts came into my mind. So many memories... Sigh! Those were the days... I'm just glad I got to make lasting *hopefully* friendships with people like MeiYan and 阿宝. =)

My mood nowadays is weird. It's fluctuating at such extreme levels. One moment I'm happy, the next thing I know, I'm livid with anger. What's wrong with me man? I'm afraid that my poor heart can't take the sudden changes for too long... =X

Anyway, enough of my rantings. I need to go start on my Social Work paper now. The deadline is next Monday and I've not even started on the analysis part. Oh gosh! This week is a busy week with so many assignments! Argh!

- English tutorial 7 due 18/10/07
- Social Work debate due 19/10/07
- Social Work paper due 22/10/07
- Kashmir paper due 24/10/07
- English mid-term test 2 due 23/10/07

How am I going to find time to watch my Andy Lau's movie? 18th October! =(

Wish me luck.

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__ Friday, October 12, 2007 ;

阿宝 asked me to go eat supper after her work last night. Finally, we met up after so long! Haha.. Ate our favourite stingray and she treated me Iced Lemon Tea again. LOL! Slept at around 4am in the morning and I'm so tired now. But, I'm so thankful for our friendship. Heex...

朋友,謝謝啦! 記得我們的約定啊!:)

Anyway, found a very touching video by a lot of Hong Kong artistes. I think it's for the Tsunami victims if I'm not wrong. Go take a look! Some of the singers are Jackie Chan, Aaron Kwok, Jacky Cheung, Mariam Yeung, Twins, Bowie Lam and most importantly, Andy Lau. Haha!

Enjoy!

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__ Thursday, October 11, 2007 ;

Been really busy ar... Finally submitted our English project after making some last minute changes just now. Went to Jamie's hall to print the report. Wow... I didn't know staying in hall can be so exciting and nice. Haha... But considering my laziness, I don't think I can endure the independent hall life. LOL!

Yay! Tomorrow is Friday again. Life in uni really passes so quickly I find it scary. Final Exams are like only 2 months away and soon this semester will end. Sigh! I'm getting older :(

This weekend will be a busy one as well. Got to rush 2 term papers out by next week. Hopefully I'll be able to complete the drafts soon. Haiz... The social work analysis is so hard! I don't know what to do with it man... =X Surprisingly, the Kashmir essay is getting more and more interesting as I do more research on it. Heex...

Oh man! Andy's new song is so nice! It's a duet with Eason Chan. Go listen! It's the themesong for their new movie I think..

The truth hurts.

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__ Tuesday, October 09, 2007 ;

Today's Psyche lecture was really fun! We learnt about infants' behaviours and their development. The lecturer showed us a lot of videos about babiesand they are really cute lah! Haha... A pity my brother is already 4 years old, if not I can experiment the things I learn on him. Heh...

When holidays start, there are tons of things that I want to do...

1. Most importantly, I want to find this particular someone whom I've dedicated my blog address to. Hey you, it's been years since we last talked and I really miss those times when we'd spend time chatting about school, discussing maths questions, and exploring issues. Those were the days when happiness is truly part of my life....

2. Next will be meeting up with Mrs Soh, my secondary school Physics teacher! I really miss her and I'm so glad we're still keeping in contact through email and sms. Physics will never be fun without her. And it's such a coincidence that one of my tuition kids is her student.

3. Also, I want to go cycling with MeiYan! It's been a looooonnnggg time since I last cycled. And I can't wait to meet up with her again! Heex...

4. I want to meet up and go shopping with friends like XianHui, Karen, Wenxiu, CheeSiong and many others! School has taken up so much time that it's so hard to meet up nowadays.

5. Lastly, it's high time I meet up with 阿宝 again! I miss drinking tea with her so much! Aww...

So many exciting events to look forward to but I'll have to wait till December before my exams end. Meanwhile, it's just late nights' mugging for me... Sian... 2 papers due in 2 weeks time and a test coming up soon... Wish me luck!

Can't wait for Andy Lau's to start screening on 18th Oct!!!!!!

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__ Sunday, October 07, 2007 ;

My life has been revolving around food nowadays and this is so no good. I don't even dare to check the weighing scales. Haha! Anyway, went Holland Village with Karen after church today!

We went to Cold Rock to eat ice-cream since HDB Tai Tai recommended it. Heex...

We managed to grab the swings! I think I look damn retarded so I'm not posting my photo here. Heh..

This is the grandma apple pie thingy ice-cream. The apple slices tasted weird. But it was still nice on the overall!

This is the Ferrero chocolate thingy... Super sweet and nice! There's nutella too! Yummy! :D

After our ice-cream, we went to Delifrance to study. But not without ordering food. Haha...

Karen's lagsane (I still don't know how to spell it.. Heh)

My don't know what pasta thingy... Not really nice =X

For dinner, I went to eat Thai Village. Ate the sharksfin thing and the crab vermillca (again, don't know how to spell.. LOL) and the fried fish.. Nice! :)

The photos don't look good coz' I only remembered to take photos after eating halfway. Heh...

Today's sermon was quite meaningful though I wasn't really paying attention. One thing I managed to catch was this phrase, "True believers give up what God asks". I don't deny the fact that I'm not a really die-hard true believer and I don't think I've really given anything up for God. But recently, I've given up a friendship that really holds special meaning in my life. Thinking of it still makes me feel sad. I don't understand why we have to meet when ultimately, parting is still our ending. I should have known better than to put my heart in our friendship.

Haiz... Anyway, Andy Lau wrote this thing on his blog few months back. Don't really understand what it means but yah, it sounds meaningful...

凡事由其自然

遇了處之泰然

得意之時淡然

失意之時坦然

艱辛曲折必然

歷盡滄桑悟然

Not every question comes with an answer. How true this is.

朋友, 我们的相遇转变了我的世界. 可是 , 到最后我是该放弃了. I'm sorry.

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__ Saturday, October 06, 2007 ;

Interesting! Try reading this...

fi yuo cna raed tihs, yuo hvae a sgtrane mnid too Cna yuo raed tihs? Olny 55 plepoe out of 100 can. i cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it dseno't mtaetr in waht oerdr the ltteres in a wrod are, the olny iproamtnt tihng is taht the frsit and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it whotuit a pboerlm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Azanmig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt!

The amazing power of our human mind! :)

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__ Friday, October 05, 2007 ;

Yay! Weekend is here again! :)

Went to school at 8am to prepare for my Social Work presentation. Haha... Last minute work is really not good. I was so worried that I couldn't finish in time. Thank goodness, I manage to complete it. Heh.

Met up with HuiMin at Engineering canteen for lunch. I ate the Indon food and HuiMin decided to be vegetarian for a day. Hahaha... Had our watermelon juices and we walked around the bazaar at Forum for a while. Heh.. Didn't spend any money on the bazaar today, which is good since I'm on budget. LOL!

Social Work lecture was fun. The lecturer let us watch segments of the movie, "I Not Stupid 2" and the parts were really funny lah, though a few were quite depressing. Hmm...

Went to Commonwealth after school to meet MeiYan! We had dinner at the newly-opened food court outside Sheng Siong. The noodles that I bought were totally disgusting lah and the dumplings were gross. Erk... Anyway, we went to Jurong Point after that to walk around. Bought our favourite green apple milk tea! Totally nice! haha... And I'm so touched by her card! Heex... :):)

It's not everyday that I make friends with people from other countries and I really thank God for this friendship with MeiYan. =)

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__ Thursday, October 04, 2007 ;

Went to Marina Square with Nithya from campus to meet Pearlning for our Social Work presentation. We finished everything in 1 hour and since it was still quite early, I decided to walk around before heading home. Went to that bookstore in CityLink and I spent nearly an hour there reading some books. Heh.. After that, I went to Raffles City to queue for donuts! Heex... Thank goodness the queue was short and I only waited for about 40minutes. LOL!

Got back my English Mid-term test paper. I'm quite satisfied with my result lah considering the fact that I sat for it while having a fever. Heh, but I can definitely do better if I gave my answers more thought and pondering... Hmm... Next English test is coming up on the 23rd this month. Got to mug even harder! :)

Malay tutorial was quite interesting just now. There was a change in tutor and her teaching style was totally different. But I benefitted a lot from the group discussions and I really learnt a lot about Islam now. Ever since I started this module, I've had a better understanding about the malay community and it's really relevant to our society. Heex... Malay studies is getting really interesting and fun!

Handed in my Psychology paper in the morning and I really hope for the best lar... Really put in quite a lot of effort for it eh... Heex... Anyway, more papers due soon!

1. English group essay
2. Social Work reflection and analysis paper
3. Sri Lanka essay
4. Malay studies group essay

Wah! Really scary and stressful! Got to start on some of it real soon!

Tomorrow will be a fun day! Lunch with HuiMin and dinner with MeiYan. Heex... Great way to end the week! :):)

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__ Wednesday, October 03, 2007 ;

God is good.

I just ended a tuition job with my primary 6 student because PSLE is tomorrow and just as I was worrying about the reduction in my monthly income, I received 2 additional tuition offers! Wow... God is really amazing! He answered my prayers so quickly. Both parents are again teachers in my brother's school. :))

Finally the Psyche MCQ test is over. Feel so relieved. Haha.. I was so shocked when I found out that the test was only an hour for 100 questions. But, thank goodness I managed to finish it in time. The worrying thing was that the test is following a negative marking scheme. Meaning that for every wrong question answered, 0.2 marks will be deducted. If I leave the answers blank, no marks will be penalised. This is so irritating lah. I was in great dilemma trying to decide whether to answer those questions which I'm not sure of. =X Anyway, the results will be out next week! Nervous...

Have to rush to finish my part for the English project now.

Darn, I'm having sore eye now. My right eye hurts and it's so red now. Argh... What the hell is wrong with my health nowadays man... =X

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__ Monday, October 01, 2007 ;

Recess week has ended officially! :( Sad to say, I've not really rested except for Friday's outing with Karen. The rest of the days were filled with schoolwork. I'm lagging behind with my readings and I'm not done with my Psyche revision. Oh man... I'm still left with half a chapter and the test is like only a day away. =X

Many things to complete this week...
1. Psyche term paper
2. EL1101E project
3. Social work presentation

Thank God I only have 2 mid-term tests and I'm already done with 1. Guess I'm more fortunate than others who have 4-5 tests...

Got to sleep now if not I'll end up dozing off later during Malay lecture.

Busy, busy week ahead...

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