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__ Wednesday, February 28, 2007 ;

Was walking around in Bukit Panjang Plaza on Monday when I saw someone whom I've not met for almost 3 years. Time has passed so quickly yet old memories still stay stucked in my mind. I actually wanted to go up to you to say hello but in the end, I just walked away silently. I guess there is not much for us to say to each other after all that has happened. I can only say that I regret not cherishing you. If I could ever turn back time, I'd treasure every single moment that we had together...

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 and broke it again at 8:54 AM ;

 

__ Sunday, February 25, 2007 ;

All along,
he willingly sacrificed for me, she won't hesitate to sacrifice me.
he spent time to bring me out, she is most happy to see me out.
he gave me his love, she gives me her money.
See the huge contrast?
I'm sorry to say that money can never buy love; only sincerity.

Don't understand what I'm talking about? Forget it.

Need to bring my brother to see doctor now. Relatives coming my house in the evening... Blah blah, nothing new. Ciaoz.

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 11:42 AM ;

 

__ Saturday, February 24, 2007 ;

A level results will be out next Friday. I'm really, really nervous lar. Oh my... I can actually feel the sadness and disappointment now even though results are not out yet. After all, I'm the one who sat for the papers and I know best how I will fare.

Must make full use of the remaining few days to play hard then. Haish...

Dammit.... I can't find any available slots to book for my practical lessons. I've not driven for almost 2 weeks already man. I can't even remember what I learned during the previous lesson. Oh man, will someone please cancel his/her slot so that I'll have the chance to book?!

Alrite, 11.30pm now... Shall go watch the Jacky Wu's Guess show. Nitex.

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 and broke it again at 11:10 PM ;

 

__ Friday, February 23, 2007 ;

Went to watch this movie when I was in Genting. Oh man.... Andy Lau looked so handsome in the movie with his white hair. But so sad he died in the end. Anyway, the movie was worth it lar, considering that I paid only RM22 for two tickets. So my sis and I only spent about 5 SGD each for the movie. Heex...

I love this shot. He looks so cool in his black suit and grim face. Oh man... How can anyone look so attractive when he's in his late 40s. Heex...

Dread work. So tired of the kids now. I hate it when I have to pretend being happy and full of life when I actually feel so empty and tired inside me. This job is making me so drained out and I really feel so disillusioned about the working life. There's a limit to my patience and yet the kids kept pushing me to my limits. What the heck? Feel so stressed up at work. Damn it. One day I will really lose control and spout vulgarities at the children. I am no saint.

Think I shall see a doctor later in the morning. My skin itches like mad and my head hurts like hell. So irritating.

I was too prideful, I failed to say just what I really meant. Now we're separated, with all the love that went unpaid and birthday greetings that I never even sent. I didn't even have the chance to say goodbye... I hope you knew that I have always loved you.

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 2:35 AM ;

 

__ Saturday, February 17, 2007 ;

Tiring day! Just finished spring cleaning my room. Oh man, I didn't realise how much junk and dirt I've been keeping in my room all these months. Felt a sense of achievement after I cleared up the mess.

Gotta go my ah ma's house now for reunion dinner as usual.

Leaving for Malaysia tomorrow night; will be back on Thursday.

See ya.

Happy Lunar New Year everyone.

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 and broke it again at 3:58 PM ;

 

__ Thursday, February 15, 2007 ;

So Chinese New Year is approaching. This is the first time I don't look forward to this festive season. Will be leaving for Malaysia in 2 days time for a short holiday in Genting. I should be happy huh? After all, Genting is like a second home to me. I go there almost every year. But, I can feel the dread and unhappiness in me. I don't know why. No... wait, maybe I know the reason. I just refuse to face it.

The colours of my life are fading as days go by. Time passes, people come and go, yet I find myself standing on the same ground where I've fallen. I can feel depression and desperation sinking in. Will anyone save me from the soon-to-be capsized boat?

Haish... So many words left unspoken, so many things undone. I could have done all those in the past 17 years of my life but I procrastinated. And when I want to start doing, it's too late. Regrets and guilt fill the emptiness in my heart.

People, cherish your loved ones before it's too late. Learn from my mistake...

Hidden cuts.

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 and broke it again at 11:41 PM ;

 

__ Sunday, February 11, 2007 ;

Woots.. I'm so happy to be able to take a photo with that child actor just now at Orchard Cineleisure! Damn excited and happy lar! Thanks to Karen for helping me ask him. Keke...
Anyway, had a fun time shopping with Karen and Theresa today. Bought a necklace, a ring, a jacket and a pair of slippers. So fun! =)

Yesterday evening I went to Bishan Junction 8 with WenXiu to queue up for Luo Zhi Xiang's autograph. Wah seh... I waited from 4.30pm to 9.30pm before WenXiu finally get his signature. Super exhausted lar!

Both of us trying to kill time while waiting for our turn. Heehee...


A super excited and enthu WenXiu... She acted almost like a lunatic after shaking Xiao Zhu's hand. Hahas...


A super blur snapshot of him and the host. The open plaza was packed with people lar. So hot and stuffy.


After almost 6 hours of torture, WenXiu finally got his autograph. But, she was so excited that she smudged the ink before it drys up. Aiyo... Wasted man. Haha...

This weekend was a very busy and hectic one. Hope the week ahead will be peaceful and quiet without any much problems.

See ya. =)

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 and broke it again at 7:26 PM ;

 

__ Saturday, February 10, 2007 ;

When to Sentosa with Karen last Sunday after church to cycle. Too stressed up at work la, got to relieve a bit of the stress and relax ourselves. Heehee. The photo was taken when we were in the tram to Sentosa. Didn't know that it only cost 3 bucks for 2 way journey. We went to Siloso and Palawan Beach. The scenery was breath-taking but I forgot to take out my phone when I left my bag in the locker. Diao... Wasted. Anyway, had a fun time unwinding at the beach. Great weather, great place, great company, what more could you ask for? :)

Been seeing and hearing too many negative things at work. Haish... Conflicts and backstabbing among fellow brothers and sisters-in-Christ have made me quite disillusioned with my own faith. Didn't God say that we are to love our neighbors as thyself? Didn't God say that we should show agape love to every single person? How can the people there proclaim so proudly that they want to help the community if they can't even show the basic care and concern for their fellow colleagues? It's so hypocritical. What is the world becoming to? For power, people are willing to sacrifice friendships. For reputation, they will not hesitate to badmouth other colleagues. For promotion, flattering bosses is no longer unusual; in fact, it's necessary. Greed has overpowered the world and we can no longer tell who is a friend and who is a foe. Perhaps one day I'll become like that too. Will I? I hope not.

Blah, guess I was too bored to have written such a huge chunk of words. Haish... Typical dull Saturday. Look forward to meet WenXiu later at Bishan Junction 8! At least in this world that's full of evil, I still have great friends to hang out with. People like Karen, Lorna, WenXiu, XianHui, Carl, Theresa, Edward, Fiona and many more. I'm so thankful for them. =)

Got to go cook for my brother. Will blog again soon. Till then.

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 and broke it again at 9:36 AM ;

 

__ Thursday, February 08, 2007 ;

Don't know why. I don't feel any purpose in life anymore. Everyday is just going to work, practicing my driving skills, and giving tuition to kids. Though it may sound meaningful, I don't feel any satisfaction or happiness from those things. Maybe I'm using too much of my time now so I don't have sufficient time to recharge my batteries. Lorna said I should get myself involved in church more actively so that I'll find a purpose to attend church weekly. But I just don't feel the passion or desire anymore. Everything I do seems like a chore to me and I really don't like my current life. Actually part of me can't wait for the A level results to be released. At least there'll be a goal in my life when I get my results. If I retain unfortunately, I'll still have examinations to keep me busy. If I successfully qualify for NUS or NTU, I'll have a new life to look forward to.

Haish... Don't know la. Just feel very, very tired and drained out everyday. Sometimes, I feel like a living zombie. Argh! What the heck.

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 7:51 PM ;

 

__ Saturday, February 03, 2007 ;

Was a bit irritated today morning but after watching this video, I laughed like mad. Damn funny lar!



Enjoy =)

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 and broke it again at 8:52 PM ;