__ Wednesday, January 31, 2007 ;

I finally made up my mind to buy that Espirit shirt that I was eyeing on. Got a surprise when I saw the price tag. It was $49.90 instead of $69.90. Think I saw wrongly the other time. Heex... I'm even more glad when I get $8 off at a lucky dip. So, I paid only $41.90 for that shirt! I'm so happy! =)

Just finished watching 2 episodes of "Kang Xi Lai Le" on youtube. Really like that variety show but too bad, Mediacorp stopped showing it on TV already.

Waiting for my paycheck patiently. It's already the end of the month and I've yet to receive it. There's so many things that I need money to spend on. Like Kbox next Sunday, more clothes, and my Malaysia trip too. Hope I'll get more money this month...

I'm so jealous of my primary school friend who is in Australia now for studies. Keke... When will it be my turn to go abroad for further studies? I want either Sydney or Melbourne! =)

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__ Saturday, January 27, 2007 ;

Lorna's birthday celebration!

Had a great time today with Lorna and Karen. Went to church to meet Lorna first then she drove us to Vivocity. We treated her to eat at her favourite Sushi Tei. See the huge sushi she's holding on the photo? Karen made it herself and our present was inside the sushi. Hee hee... So fun! After eating, she drove us back to church to attend Cynthia's wedding. The ceremony was pleasant but I thought it was quite boring and too crowded. But on the overall, it was fun and Cynthia really looked pretty in her wedding gown! =)

Have been eyeing on a shirt from Esprit for quite some time. It cost $69.90 and I don't know whether I should buy it. But I really like it man... Don't know lah, shall see how.

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__ Friday, January 26, 2007 ;

I love this kid so much! He looks a lot like my little brother. Heehee...

I don't think I'm a good teacher. I'm not fair and partial. Those kids whom I like, I'll treat them very nicely even if they're in the wrong. But I'll be very cold and hostile to those whom I detest. I think I have to change. That's not very fair to some kids. Or perhaps I'm just not suitable for this job after all. Hais... I wonder if I can actually stay till June.

Another friend of mine is going to Australia soon for theological studies. Though I'm really sad whenever someone has to go overseas, I guess that's parts and parcel of life. Haish...

Promised the kids that I'll go to MapleSea to play the games with them. Heh... Shall go and try playing now. Think I'll die at the very first stage. =X

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__ Sunday, January 21, 2007 ;

Had a terrible dream last night. I dreamt that I failed my A levels and that I'm retaining another year at JJ. I know that I should be prepared for the worst but, I don't know whether I can take such a terrible blow. I'm afraid of how others will think of me and worst still, I will look down on myself. Haish...

I'm thinking of taking up a part-time job during weekends or after my childcare work. Nah, I'm not that poor but it's just for the sake of gaining more experience and since I'm super free now, why not? Hee hee... Sounds fun eh? Will call Mcdonald to find out whether they're hiring people for midnight shift. Oh ya, I might be tutoring a N level student soon thanks to Aunty Fiona's recommendation. Hee... Hope the student's mum will agree to my cheap price. =)

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__ Friday, January 19, 2007 ;

Yay!! I passed my Final Theory Test and I'm so overjoyed now.. Hee hee...

After the test, I rushed down to Jurong Entertainment Centre to meet up with a colleague for a chit-chat session. Shall not mention her name since I'm not sure who's reading my blog. Anyway, she told me a lot of things about working at the before and after school care. Honestly, I'm very shocked to hear about all the things that is happening in the centre. This is really unbelievable, given the fact that it's a religious organisation. Goodness, I really can't accept the way people do things just to gain power. Though I don't really know the Bible well, I know that it's not the right way that God wants us to act. God surely doesn't like seeing us backstabbing each other, I'm sure. Haish.... Luckily I'll only be staying for a few more months. We chatted from 9pm to 1.20am before catching a cab home. Heh... Think I'll be dead tired tomorrow...

Booked my driving test already. It's on the 7th of June, Thursday. Hee... Really hope I can pass at the first attempt.

Alright... gotta go sleep now. Till then =)

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__ Wednesday, January 17, 2007 ;

Took photos with the kids again today! Here're some random ones =)

Seeing double? Haha... Nope, the 2 little boys are twins. So cute right? Keke...

Am very energetic now despite the fact that it's already 1.20am in the morning. Must be the coffee that I drank earlier in the evening with Vivian and Hui Ping. Sian... I can't get to sleep now and there's not many people online to chat with. Argh! So very bored now.

Sort of miss school now. Maybe it's not the school, most probably I miss my friends. It's so hard to meet up with them now that I'm working and they're also busy with their stuffs. Esp Xian Hui and Wen Xiu and many others... Thank goodness I'm working together with Karen. If not, I'll have one more person to miss... Haha! Can't imagine how life would be like when A level results are out and we embark on different routes of education. I've become so used to seeing some of my friends everyday and it'd be very weird without them around... I guess parting is just something that we have to accept in life... Haix...

The harsh reality of life?

But I believe true friendships last eternally.

Perhaps separation is just a test to see how strong our friendships are.

I hope each and every single friendship that I share will pass this test.

I seriously treasure every single friend that I have... Oh man...

Alright... I better stop now before I get nostalgic and start crying. =(

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__ Monday, January 15, 2007 ;

Am sick today. Bleah. But I refuse to be absent from work cuz that means I'll have to lose 45 bucks. Heh...

It's been 2 days since JiaXing left for America. Miss her sooooo much lar! Haix...

I'm really bored now obviously so this post is quite random.

Need to go buy lots of things later before going to work.

1. Raincoat for my brother
2. Stickers for the kids
3. Red pen
4. Stamps
5. Lorna's present

Sianz... So many things to buy, so little money to spend... Have the urge to go apply for ATM card but no lar, if I get the card, my bank account will deplete within a few days. Don't want my hard earned money to be wasted away just like that.

Still need to help my brother apply for passport. What the heck... I don't even know where or how to go about doing it. Diao...

And my phone bill is not here yet. It's been 2 months. What happened eh?

Oh well... gotta go now if not I'll be late for work. Can't wait to play with the twins - Darren and Darrei... Heehee...

Ciao.

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__ Sunday, January 14, 2007 ;

A random pic taken during the Lakeside staff retreat at Garden Hotel last year. =)

Anyway, went to church today with Karen and Aunty Fiona. I think the songs and the sermon were great but somehow, I feel emptiness inside me. I can't feel the love of Christ anymore and it's been like that for quite some time. At times, I really felt like giving up my faith and don't bother about it anymore. But, it took me so long before I had the chance to go to church and I find it hard to just let myself be separated from God. I don't know what the heck is wrong with me. I want to hold on to God and not let Him go but, something is blocking it and preventing me from loving God more... I feel so lost...

Don't ever let me go...

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__ Saturday, January 13, 2007 ;

It's 1.08am in the morning but I still can't sleep. Was a tiring week at work, having to fetch students back from school everyday. The rain simply makes the situation worse and it's so troublesome and stressful la, having the kids' safety as my responsibility. Chasing after them to do homework is even more stressful. Their noise level alone is enough to damage my ear drum. =X But, I still love the kids a lot! Took a number of photos with them! Posted them up in my album already. Specially chose 2 favourite shots with the kids to post here. Heehee... =)

These are all the kids from Lakeside Primary School. See the 2 boys? They're twins! So cute la!

Lucious ( dunno how to spell lar! keke) Anyway, I call him Aunty Lulu. Haha! He's so adorable and round, like a pineapple! =P

Just seeing these lovely children makes me happy. I hope I can endure a few more months at the school care. Darn. But some colleagues just spoil my day. Oh well, I should just ignore them and give all my attention to those lovely kids.

Ok... Have a nice weekend ahead! =)

I just found out that the Alphabet Song has the same tune as Twinkle Twinkle Little Star. Haha...

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__ Thursday, January 11, 2007 ;

Haven't been blogging much cuz I was quite busy recently la.

Tidied up my room on Monday before going to work. Basically nothing much.

Went out for breakfast with Lorna on Tuesday. She drove us to King Albert Park for Macs. Fun to go out with her. =)

Went for driving lessons yesterday. Darn... I think I've made a huge mistake by enrolling myself for driving lessons. Drove out to the roads yesterday and I was SO nervous. The roads along Bukit Batok were congested with huge and heavy vehicles. The instructor simply made me feel worst by asking me to drive faster. Diao...

I have a strong urge to tender my resignation. I guess there'll be office politics no matter where you work at but I can't accept the fact that this is a charitable and religious organisation and yet there is so much rivalry going on. Moreover, some of them think that I'll ruin their chances of promotion or even bring them trouble. This particular staff even told me not to sabo her. I really couldn't believe my ears when I heard that. Guess I was too naive to think that there'd be no conflicts working in a charitable organisation.

Gotta prepare to go for work now. Thinking of some of my colleagues makes me feel dreadful but the children makes my day. It's the kids that I can't bear to part with. Sigh! In a dilemma. I wish it's still their school holidays now.

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__ Sunday, January 07, 2007 ;

1 week is gone just like that.

Went for manicure with Karen at Jurong Point and had a bad encounter. Dammit... Just thinking of it makes my blood boil. Am not going back to that particular shop anymore. But I like my nails now. Heex...

Oh well, nothing much to blog anyway. Very tired now. Shall sleep. Good night.

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__ Tuesday, January 02, 2007 ;

This will be a lengthy entry, so be prepared. Hehe...

Prom was fun except for the food I guess. Shall let the photos do the talking.... Here are some of my favourite pics...

Me and Mr Seah... I think he looks great... heh

Karen !! I love her dress... =)

The school counsellor, Mr Wu...

Ms Chew. She has really helped me a lot throughout my JC life.

Ms Eleen Tan looks younger than me in this pic. Hahas!

My favourite photo! Really have to thank HuaiAn for helping me edit it. Before that, the photo was damn dark la, thanks to the poor lighting and my lousy "flashless" phone. Image is still quite blur but I'm satisfied. Bet you can't figure out who the person standing next to me is.. He's Mr Carl Ng!! Haha... He looked like a different person with his new hairstyle. Gosh... Think I've not seen him for a year already! So happy to take this photo with him! Heehee... =)

Anyway, had fun on the last day of 2006. Went to Cineleisure Orchard to watch "Curse of the golden flower"... It was unexpectedly nice! Went to the Countdown Party outside Cine. Didn't really like it cuz the performers were foreign to me. Heehee... After that, we decided to stay in Orchard for the night and so we walked around the streets observing the people along the way. Ate Mcdonald for supper and chatted at the McCafe for a while. Went back to Cine to have coffee at a cafe that opens for 24 hours. Hehe... Quite an experience for me since this is the first time I stayed overnight outside. Enjoyed my New Year's Eve with WenXiu! =)

Today was a busy day as well... Uncle Victor drove us to Bukit Timah to have lunch. I must say the food there was superb! Ate a lot of delicious food... Heh... Went to a salon near my home to highlight my hair... Still can't accept the colour now. The hairdresser lied to me saying that it won't be obvious but oh my gosh... Most of my hair is orange in colour now...

Will be starting work tomorrow. Hope I can work well with the upper primary kids...

On a darker tone, I still can't forgive myself even after all this while. Lorna said that I'm not to be blamed but, I can't deceive my own feelings. I can't even bring myself to ask God to forgive me... Maybe I deserve to live with this guilt for the rest of my life... I have only myself to blame.

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