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__ Wednesday, September 27, 2006 ;

Aunty Janice and Cynthia Ang from church have insisted on paying for my tuition fees. I'm touched by their kindness but am burdened by it as well. I'm worried of letting them down with my horrible results next year. God has sent many people into my life to help me with this difficult period. I'm beginning to have hope in the future again. For the remaining 35 days, I'll put in my heart and soul on my studies. Though hard, I'm sure that God will guide me through and His grace will lead me Home. I know I can always find rest in Him.

Saviour He can move the mountains
My God is mighty to save
He is mighty to save
Forever Author of Salvation
My God has conquered the grave
He is mighty to save

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 6:02 PM ;

 

__ Tuesday, September 19, 2006 ;

It's been a rather hectic week last week with all the major papers crammed together. Now I'm left with only Econs Paper 1 and 2. I hope I can pass MCQ and DRQ this time round... My calculations sucked :( Since I have some time now, I'm gotta write a loooong entry... Hees...

Did I mentioned that my maid has left to get married in Indonesia? Oh well, now I'm trying to adjust to life without a maid. Aunty Swee Lan(my parents' friend) has been very kind to come to my home weekly to teach me how to cook. Learnt how to cook Italian pasta yesterday night. Yummy! But I don't like the beef part. I still can't convince myself to eat beef. Ohmigosh.. How can anyone stomach the big cow found in grasslands? Yucks...

Went to lunch with Lorna (church staff) last Friday at Great World City. Had a hard time trying to find a space in the carpark la. It was so crowded, thanks to the heavy downpour. Ate at a Japanese restaurant and the food was nice! But, the bill doesn't look nice at all... 70++ bucks for just a few plates of food?! And she insisted on treating me... man, adults are too generous.

After chatting with Lorna, I think I've changed my goal. I aim to study Economics in NUS now and then take up Psychology after I work. But, I've got to secure a place in NUS before I can achieve that. Have to study extra hard now that A levels are only 43 days away. Thank goodness I have friends like Lorna to help me with time management and GP. Hees...

I'm amazed at how God works in my life. He has proven that He will never abandon us nor forsake us. We just have to be faithful and patient. I promise I will study the Bible seriously after my examinations.

Going out to study now. Blog again soon.

I asked God for strength, that I might achieve,
I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health, that I might do greater things,
I was given infirmity, that I might do better things.
I asked for riches, that I might be happy,
I was given poverty, that I might be wise.
I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men,
I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God.
I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life,
I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.
I got nothing that I asked for,
but everything that I hoped for.
Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayes were answered.
I am among men, most richly blessed.

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 8:25 AM ;

 

__ Thursday, September 07, 2006 ;

It's Thursday already. And I have to say that I'm much prepared to fail Prelims. I don't know why this is happening... I just don't have the mood to study. Suddenly, studies don't seem to matter much anymore...

The social worker wants to meet me, but I refused. What's the use of meeting her? It isn't going to change the situation anyway. At this point of time, I really don't know what to do. God is so silent, I'm so lost. I just heard the message CD by Pastor Shih Ming. He mentioned that the key to personal peace is acceptance. It's so easy to say yet, hard to fufil. With the impending death of a loved one and the expected failure of my academic, how can I accept all these? I want to trust God and commit everything to Him but, something in me is holding back. I don't know what... I really don't know what to do now...

My world is breaking down. With so many negative news about sufferings and casualties, it's hard for me to believe in true happiness again...

Living on this world is hard.

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 7:01 PM ;

 

__ Monday, September 04, 2006 ;

Though I hate to admit this, I know that death is going to be the ultimate ending. Lorna said I shouldn't run away from the problem. I know running away is not going to solve anything but, it's too painful and hurting to face it... Sometimes, I have this feeling that God is no longer here with me. I don't feel the peace and serenity in my heart anymore when I go to church on Sundays. I think I'm drifting away from Him... With so much things in my mind, I find it hard to concentrate on reading the Bible now. I don't feel the joy anymore... I hope I'm not backsliding at this point of time...

Prelims start next week. Wish me luck!

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 10:52 AM ;