__ Saturday, March 25, 2006 ;
Went to church just now to do maths with Jonathan. Heh heh... He's good! I can understand fully the concepts now after his explanation... =) I'm getting more and more motivated to study hard now. hahas... Hope this momentum will last me till the end of this year.
I'm so glad that I managed to pass GP common test Paper 2 lar. Though it's just a marginal pass, I'm very contented since I know how terrible my
ang moh is. Being able to pass is a privilege already ok. hahas... Hope that I'll be able to pass Paper 1 too. *Prays*
Yesterday's bible study lesson was great! I can't wait to go for street evangelism and tell the world about God. hahas... Though I doubt I'll have the courage or wisdom, I'll continue praying to ask God to guide me. At the end of the lesson, I really feel nourished by God's word, His providence and His grace. And yah, I've been thinking about baptism for quite some time. Boon Jin said baptism is just a declaration to tell the public that I've decided to follow Jesus. I want to be baptised but there're so many factors to consider. Parental objections, my commitments etc...Haish... I'll wait and see.
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." ~Philippians 4:6-7
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__ Friday, March 24, 2006 ;
It's 12am now and I'm still very energetic. Can't get to sleep lah.. Hm... Went to Tiong Bahru Plaza to study Econs with Janice just now. Thanks to her, I'm starting to like Econs a little bit already... Hahas... Anyway, really learnt quite a lot from her lah. =)
Seriously don't feel like going to school tomorrow lah. Especially when there is 2 hours of GP to endure. Who the hell invented GP man?! Feel like bashing that person up. Make my life so terrible for no reason. And there's PC first thing in the morning lah. Luckily I have MC for this week... Hees... Can escape the torture of running for 2 lessons. I'm so going to be late for school every tuesday and friday to skip PC. I promise. I'd rather go for detention than run around the track... hahas... =X
It's been a long time since I went shopping man. I miss Orchard and Bugis... And I miss having the time to walk around the shops aimlessly without worrying about homework or tests. I miss meeting up with my friends and joking around with them. I miss going to the beach to play with the sand and the waves. I miss cycling along East Coast Park, moving along with the wind... Haish... Who the hell introduced A level examinations! Hmph! So cruel of this person to snatch away our leisure and freedom. Can't wait for exams to be over ah....
73 more days before you return. How am I going to react when you come back? I've been waiting for the day to come for the past one year and I am really looking forward to see you again. I know, things are never going to be the same like before anymore. But I don't mind, being able to see you safe and happy is enough for me. I don't ask for anything else... Just want you to be happy...
Ok, shall be a good girl and go to sleep now. tata...
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__ Monday, March 20, 2006 ;
Didn't go to school today. Slept for only 3 hours yesterday and I'm feeling super tired now. I just can't fall asleep man. What the heck! So very frustrating.... And my headaches are getting worser each day. The doctor said he's going to refer me to a neurologist if the headaches continue despite having medication... I think he's over-reacting lah... Duhx...
Went to Tackle Box service yesterday. Pastor Shih Ming said that more than half of the world are living with only 2 US dollar per day. It's very saddening to hear about all these... Here I am, being so blessed in Singapore, and yet I'm not doing anything to help the people in 3rd world countries. It's really sad lah to see so many people who have not heard of the Lord yet. I want to do my part too... But, am I capable enough to stand up and stand out for Christ?
Met Milton after the service too.. Hahas... I feel a bit guilty for not replying to all his sms-es for the past few weeks. Ok, I promise to make an effort to go for lessons when it start again in May lah. And he said his mum saw us at 11am service for the last few weeks.... dots... I didn't know his mum knew who we were and I had no idea we were being spied on...hahas... -_-"
Anyway, I'm kinda worried for my uncle... Doctors gave him only 2 years to live... Gosh...When I saw the state he was in, I don't know how to react... Nothing I can do, except pray bahx... haish... Why is my family having so many casualties... =X
Ok, I think this entry is getting too long le. Shall stop now... till then!
Jesus, I believe in You.Jesus, I belong to You.You're the reason that I live,the reason that I sing..With all I am..So near, yet so far... That's how I feel towards you.
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__ Saturday, March 18, 2006 ;
Very tired... Just came back from church. Went to help Cynthia with the projection thingy.. I seriously think I was much of a trouble than help. Cuz I don't know anything about those equipments... Was so stressed until my stomach hurts... dots....And felt a bit extra also... ahahs.. Nevertheless, I had fun lah. And I got to see Pastor Kow too... hees... happy! =)
School's starting soon and I've not completed all my homework. Oh gosh... how come time flies so quickly when you're having fun? haish... Have to burn midnight oil today and tomorrow le. Hope I won't get more pimples due to the lack of sleep. Am already suffering from a pimple outbreak le... So pek chek ah!! I hate pimples... =X
Heard that my uncle was diagnosed with some rare disease that causes the organs to deteriorate... Not very sure of his condition though. But do pray for him ya?
Won't be coming online too often le, I promise. I promise I will study hard! hahas... Gotta go..Till then!
It's always better to give than to receive. When you give without expecting a reward,God will reward you with the treasures in heaven...
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__ Wednesday, March 15, 2006 ;
Cut my hair at Chapter 2 (Bugis) yesterday with XH and Theresa. Hee... Am satisfied with the haircut though I don't think there's any significant change with my hair. I enjoyed the hair washing part lah. Wish I could go back everyday to wash my hair. lols...
Went to eat Sakae Sushi Buffet with Edward and Theresa today. I'm not going to touch sushi for the next few months la. Ate so much until I feel like puking and my stomach felt as if it was going to burst soon. =X
Oh well, I'm still having headaches man. Sometimes it really hurts like mad sia. Why can't the doctors do anything to lessen the pain? Argh! Wished I could just chop down my whole head and change a new one.... dots...
I'm making an improvement! hehe... Managed to study one chapter of Econs today. haahs... I don't usually spend time on Econs de wor... But for the sake of good results, I'm going to try to love the subject... Haish... I think I'm going to have a hard time. lols... And Janice is going to vomit blood too while tutoring me... hahas...
Gotta go now... till then. =)
For all honour and glory and power...belongs to You, belongs to You... Lord Jesus Christ,Son of the living God...
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__ Monday, March 13, 2006 ;
I'm going to fail the GP common test. I know it... Haish...
Today's GP content module was nice. Ms Toh let us watch a video on Evolution vs Creationism. It was very interesting to hear the views of various Christians on Evolution. I believe in 6 day Creationism lahz of course. That's what the Bible says and I believe it fully. It's a very simple logic lor... Take the handphones for example. Firstly, the handphones were designed by someone. The designer also created other components like the battery that would allow the phone to function. Similarly, God created us and He, too, provided all that is vital for our survival. Next, the phone is created for a purpose. It enables communication to be easier. Likewise, God gave us a purpose in life, that is to take care of the world He created, under His guidance. So, if we were really descendents of the apes, what is our purpose in life? How did our soul come about?
Anyway, it's a very busy March Holiday that I have. Haish... So many homework and things to revise. Plus, I have to catch up with all the topics that I am lagging behind. It is so overwhelming and stressful lah. But, I'm not going to be defeated. Will continue to work hard de lahz.... hahas... NUS, I'm coming!! =)
Dear God,Thank you for giving the many homework because that means I still have a school to attend. Thank you for making me feel lost because that allowed me to know that I still need You.Thank you for letting me feel outcasted because I've learnt to treasure my friends even more. Thank you for giving me failures because I've learnt to grow stronger mentally. Thank you for giving me tears because that means I'm still able to feel. Thank you for all the things that you've done no matter good or bad. Because I know all these happened for a reason. Most importantly, thank you for giving me life and a chance to get to know you even more.May your name be glorified!In Jesus name, Amen.
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__ Saturday, March 11, 2006 ;
Just came back from NUS open house. Am so tired now lahz. Took so many pamplets and notebooks. Hahas... Met a lot of familiar faces at the open house too. I've set my eyes on Psychology and Maths. I hope I'll be able to do either one of those lah. So I'm gonna
fa fen tu qiang from today onwards. lols... Went to NUH to have lunch too after the open house. Not bad lahz the food... And the dessert is nice too! =)
GP common test on Monday. Gosh... Seriously hope I can pass. I did so badly for my TCA 1 lah. Single digit score somemore.... wah lao. Watching Big Momma's house on Monday too! heh heh... Can't wait...
Am having a super busy March Holiday. Argh! Whatever lah... Gotta go... till then.
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__ Friday, March 10, 2006 ;
Saw him again. Gosh... I don't know how to react. hahas.... -_-
Anyway, holidays have started! Looking forward to the NUS open house tomorrow. Hees... =)
Gotta go for bible study lessons le. Till then...
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and broke it again at 4:38 PM ;
__ Thursday, March 09, 2006 ;
Thank God, it wasn't dengue or some liver problems. Hehe.... It was merely a viral infection lah. Scare me... diaox... And made me wasted so much blood due to the blood tests... Anyway, thanks to Cynthia and XianHui who accompanied me on the trip to the clinic yesterday and today. And yes, I got an excuse for PC tomorrow... Hees...
Have been suffering from insomnia lately... wah lao... I'm still awake at 2am lor. Now I have dark rings under my eyes le... piangz... so unsightly... I'm so tired now, but I just can't sleep... It's so irritating ah!
I'm stressed. Super duper stressed now. School work is so overwhelming... I'm afraid I can't take it any longer. Argh!
Nothing's gonna change my love for you..You ought to know by now how much I love you.One thing you can be sure,I've never asked for more than your love....
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__ Monday, March 06, 2006 ;
When will I be able to smile from the bottom of my heart? Dreamt of you last night, and I woke up feeling depressed again. I can't wait for you to return to Singapore... But then again, what's the use of being able to see you? Things will never be the same like before again... Haish....
Am very busy this week. Going to check my body this Wednesday after school. Hope there's nothing wrong with me lah... I suspect it has something to do with my kidneys or liver man. Woah... scary sia... I better don't think so much...
Am joining as a volunteer at Singapore Youth for Christ. Hees... Starting the basic lessons this week. Very excited about what God has planned for my life... Filled with anticipation and excitement lahz...
Won't be blogging too often now... Till then!
Lord, open the eyes of my heart....
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__ Sunday, March 05, 2006 ;
Heh heh... Finally, Pastor Shih Ming is back. Hahas... Happy =)
Irritating headaches and stomachaches. Argh! I guess I should go see a doctor soon...
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