__ Sunday, February 26, 2006 ;
Gawd! I've been having these terrible headaches that simply refuse to disappear even after consuming panadols. It's bothering me a lot ah... Don't tell me it's some kind of brain tumor or something...
Physics SPA next Tuesday. I'm terribly worried about it. Didn't attend 2 practical lessons for the past few weeks and I know nothing about the skills required for the exam. I'm so dead now... duh... And there's Integration Class Test on Thursday. I'm so stressed up by all these tests and exams. Argh! I can't wait for A levels to be gone... I have lots of things to do this year end. Hees... Clubbing, dye hair, driving lessons, travel, holiday job, mission trip, and of course, watch M18 movies... Oh man, I so badly want to watch
Munich... But it's rated M18. So very pissed off. Hmph!
A levels results are releasing next week wor. I'm keeping my fingers crossed lah. I don't expect too much for my Chinese grade. Just hope it's better than a C lah. And I've got nothing to say about Project Work... diaoz... Anyway, hope my seniors will do well and get to choose a uni course of their preference. =)
I'm fine already. Thanks to Ms Chew and Mr Ng for bringing me to the hospital on Tuesday and Ms Toh for comforting me. Hm... Life is short, treasure it. That's all I have to say lah.
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__ Friday, February 24, 2006 ;
This friend wrote me a letter entitled
10 reasons why Grace should live. This is what she wrote:
1. God loves her
2. She's only 18 years old
3. Johnny Depp is still waiting for her at Hollywood
4. There's still hope that H.O.T might reunite
5. She's blessed with great friends
6. She has not gone for a mission trip yet
7. She is not married yet
8. She has not given birth yet
9. She has not learnt driving yet
10. She has a bright future
Gosh...I'm so touched. Thanks a lot pal!
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__ Tuesday, February 14, 2006 ;
Her tears are dried up, her emotions drained... She is lost and wandering aimlessly on earth. She's tired...very tired. This will be the very last entry of her blog. From today onwards, her soul is dead. She'll never let anyone hurt her again...
I'm missing you so much... Hope you're doing fine in Sydney.
Happy Valentine's Day. It's wrong, but
I love you.
`+ 53669-1314
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__ Friday, February 10, 2006 ;
Didn't go to school again. Heck...
It's not that I'm not angry, I just don't dare to get angry. In fact, I was really pissed off when I saw the things that weren't meant for me to see. But I'm afraid of losing your friendship if I quarrelled with you. Haiz...
Anyway, have been feeling breathless for the past few days. I find it really hard to breathe at times. The doctor said it is most probably because I am too stressed or tired. Haish! How can I not be stressed at this point of time? Homework is piling up, tests are coming one after another, and I'm lagging behind by a lot. Argh! I can already see myself becoming a mental patient by September if things don't get better. I hate college life! Sucks to the max...
I miss you. Without you, I'm like a living zombie, walking around in a human's body. Haish... I wished things were the same like before. But I know it's impossible. I love you so much... Haish...
Depression is sinking in... It's hard to escape.
Oh yah, I think I saw that boy from church just now. Heard that his name is
Titus... Unique name...hahas...Karen and I agreed that he really looked like
Lao Niu! =)
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__ Sunday, February 05, 2006 ;
Didn't blog for a number of days. Was very busy with homework lahz. Hees... Finally, Grace is starting to do some work. lol.
Sick today. Went for TTB and felt really terrible with a throbbing headache and bad stomachache. Seriously couldn't concentrate on what the speaker was talking about. Stayed behind with Karen to attend 11am service too. Hees... I really enjoyed the songs and the whole atmosphere. Is there something wrong with me? I'm a youth and yet I don't like attending the youth services. Instead, I prefer the adult one... I'm super
chao lao man... :-/
School starts again. Sian diao. What's more, there is a trip to Chinatown tomorrow. Wah lao... Someone save me pls! I think I gotta fake an illness to get the early leave form. I'm not going to go to the Chinatown trip. Period. And there's Differentiation test on Tuesday. rahh... I'm so stressed ah!
Hm... Received the NUS open house notification today. I'm overwhelmed with emotions man. On one hand, I'm happy and excited about being a Uni student but on the other hand, I'm afraid of the responsibilities and challenges an undergraduate will face. Oh well, all in all, I gotta study hard first before I can qualify as a Uni student lahz. I want to enter NUS faculty of Arts and Social Science so badly!
And, I want to go for a mission trip! I want to serve more in church. But, I don't think I have any talent to contribute lahz. Wah lao...I'm so jealous with people who know how to play the piano. hmph!
Alright, gotta go now. till then.
P/S : Cyn, why did you choose to leave silently? We could have sort things out and this ending could have been prevented. Why did you decide on leaving? Don't you trust me after all these years? It hurts so much...
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