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__ Thursday, September 07, 2006 ;

It's Thursday already. And I have to say that I'm much prepared to fail Prelims. I don't know why this is happening... I just don't have the mood to study. Suddenly, studies don't seem to matter much anymore...

The social worker wants to meet me, but I refused. What's the use of meeting her? It isn't going to change the situation anyway. At this point of time, I really don't know what to do. God is so silent, I'm so lost. I just heard the message CD by Pastor Shih Ming. He mentioned that the key to personal peace is acceptance. It's so easy to say yet, hard to fufil. With the impending death of a loved one and the expected failure of my academic, how can I accept all these? I want to trust God and commit everything to Him but, something in me is holding back. I don't know what... I really don't know what to do now...

My world is breaking down. With so many negative news about sufferings and casualties, it's hard for me to believe in true happiness again...

Living on this world is hard.

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 7:01 PM ;