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__ Sunday, November 27, 2005 ;

Went for TTB as well as 11am service today. Seriously did not like TTB man. Not that it isn't fun, just that maybe I'm not used to their way of worship lahz. Afterall, I've been attending the 11am service for months already. Can't really remember what Pastor Barnabas preached at the TTB service except for this sentence :"We worship to seek the Person of God and not seek experience. By seeking the Person of God, we gain experience." I think I'm guilty of only seeking the experience rather than wanting to seek God. Sometimes, I look forward to going to church because of the songs and worship instead of being able to be with God. Till now, I still can't feel God's presence around me. I don't feel peaceful and calm at all whenever I'm at service. Don't know what's wrong with me.Anyway, 11am service was nice! Truly enjoyed the songs and message Pastor Shih Ming talked about. I hope one day God will use me to be a blessing to others around me. Wished I had the opportunity to go for a mission trip too. Hm... went for e_God yesterday afternoon also. Was quite nice too. Had Holy Communion. I liked the station where we write out what is bothering us and ask God to help us overcome it. I truly believe God will intervene and put a stop to the crisis that I've been facing for so long. One day I'll get out of it... I trust the Lord.

This weekend has been a good time for me to rest and recharge. Will be going to work again tomorrow. Shall endure for another 3 more days of taping and detaping. After Wednesday, I really have to start on my studies. Homework lying on my desk untouched, J1 topics waiting for me to revise, and lots of newspapers for me to do review on. When will all these ever end? I seriously hate the thought of school reopening. I fear school. I don't want all the problems to come back when school starts again. Will I ever get to start anew? Or will I be scarred forever? I'm scared to go back to school. If only time stops ticking at this moment...

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 4:53 PM ;

 

__ Saturday, November 26, 2005 ;

This is for my bestest friend.....
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, KAREN! =)
May you be happy and crazy always. hahas...

Didn't blog for quite some time. Been very busy at work lahz. Had to work overtime till 7pm for the past week lo. And yesterday was really rush lah. Jia Cang and I were rushing to remove all the tapes from the lots and I almost couldn't make it in time to go home man. We managed to finish in time, thanks to Ah Leong, who helped us too. Heh heh... It was fun though, rushing and feeling the pressure our boss gave us. I'm mad huh? I think working has taught me several things that I'll never get to learn in school. I'm glad I got the chance to work this holiday and one important thing is that I'll have the money to buy the things that I want. hahas...

Am lazy to blog about the cruise trip lahz. hahas... Shall blog about it and post photos after I quit my job. In short, it was a great and fun trip. I'm glad I went with my 2 best friends. =)

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 9:59 AM ;

 

__ Wednesday, November 16, 2005 ;

Am going cruise today with Xian Hui and Karen! hahas... Simply can't wait. Going to town with them later in the morning to pei XH to go collect her shoes. Going KBox after collecting her shoes. Hahas.... Can't wait to sing again. Will not be blogging until Saturday bahz. =)

Anyway, paperwork was no fun, I'd rather go back to do taping. Haish... Had to read all the files of the various factories and type out a summary of their specification. Wah lao... It's really tough. I wonder how I can survive till the end of November. But for the sake of money, I have to perservere lahz...

Gotta go now. Will post photos of the cruise trip when I'm back. Pray that the good Lord will bless this trip with fun and safety, Amen! Till then....

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 7:31 AM ;

 

__ Saturday, November 12, 2005 ;

Just came home from work, am very tired now lahz. Ended work at 11pm last night and had to wake up at 4am in the morning today. Wah lao... Eyes are closing soon. But, for the sake of money, I have to work hard. Haish... Earning money is hard. I've got to save more money and not waste them. Hm... I'm transferred to do paperwork next week. This means I won't have to stay in that filthy room to tape those gold platings... hahas... Damn happy lah. But I'll miss the people there... Golden Monkey, Ah Leong, Ah Chew, Ah Chia, Jia Cang, Ravin... I've had my bit of fun while working there too...

Anyway, am going cruise on Wednesday!!! hahas... Simply can't wait... but I've yet to pack my lagguage. Very lazy leh... Can someone come to my house to pack for me? hehex... Still need to buy some stuffs for the trip lahz... Hope I won't forget my passport and camera on Wednesday... hee... Getting so excited now... ah!!

May not update so often now... cuz I gotta go to work from 8am to 7pm... Argh! Till then...

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 4:32 PM ;

 

__ Thursday, November 10, 2005 ;

Long time no update. Been very busy juggling between work and PW lahz. Going to break down very soon. It's draining me mentally and physically.... God, please give me more strength and determination to last for this whole week.

Chatted with Cynthia last Saturday about something. Indeed, God loves everyone of us regardless of our sins. I'm thankful for that and I'll try my best to get out of that shadow. I'll really try.

Thanks to Karen, I'm so in love with this song now...so touching...

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
And the distance feels further when you're headed for the ground,
And there is nothing more painful than to let you're feelings takeyou down,
It's so hard to know the way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts and feelings that you hide,
But you might feel better if you let me walk with youby your side,
And when you need a shoulder to cry on,
When you need a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone,
cause I'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
you won't be alone,
cause I'll be there.

I miss you. I hope I'll be your shoulder for you to cry on when you're in need. Will I get to see you again?

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 9:00 PM ;