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__ Tuesday, September 20, 2005 ;

Thought about a lot of things during PW tutorial today since there wasn't anything to do. Thought about you. How I wished you were still by my side now. At least I won't be afraid even if the whole world turn against me. I really have no motivation to study hard now. Without you, nothing seems to be meaningful to me anymore. I hate going to school, I hate studying, I hate waking up every morning feeling depressed, I hate life... Seriously... I don't even feel like talking anymore. I just want to hide in my little hole and live a lonely life. I'm tired.... Physically and mentally exhausted... Really tired le... I want to give up, leave all these miseries and troubles behind and run away. I have no more energy... You're gone, Lao Niu is leaving, I'm on the verge of retaining, someone close to me is dying,... I see no hope in the future...

Dear God, please give me the strength to continue fighting on...

made another new promise ][-
 and broke it again at 8:16 PM ;